Thoughts: The devil comes in any forms and fashion. even in ur friends when u didnt even see it coming. I have to admit i am not the perfect person . But i know who and what i am . and the person that i am trying to become. and No one will stand in my way unless god has a different plan for me. He didnt get me here to let me fall . and I understand that now. I thought i was alone in this and that i wouldnt be able to get anything done. I lost the most important part of me to regain the best side of me. It was my first and its my last.
On a upper note I linked up with is young lady and she is fucking great. she gave me ideals to impovement of my blog. Not all new yorks are bad ppl and i see that also . So me and her will be working on my blog . and it will have new things and more interesting . My weight lost is one . and i hope it helps alot of ppl and can help ppl though the dark times . cause I know its a struggle with ur life as a whole. and I can feel it more then anyone.
So I will be posting tips and my progress with before and after pictures, AND also My fashion part is coming. life in nyc is so different but i think its a beautiful thing that i have all these changes ahead of me and i got so much going for me... and its all because of my life line.. and that s My daughter everyday , she tells me I hate that ur away but i know its for the betterment of me. that alone keeps me going,
Keep ur dreams in mind and makem reality
HUGGS and kisses
TheChanges!!
Monday, July 8, 2013
Monday, June 24, 2013
True Colors
Thoughts: I could say alot and have so much to tell but I wouldnt be able to explain. Its funny how the tables turn . But the turn for the betterment of someone.
Even when u feel like u got the whole world against u and no one is on ur side But self.
This pass week has been the test for me. God is truly working on me and the devil is hitting the last nerve in my body cell. And thats no lie.
But I aint got NO WORRIES. at all cause things happen for a reason. Ppl are taken out ur life for a bigger plan .
My bestie told me I was ful of joy ... and up to the moment she said it I didnt even realize it. How much life i had in me. Because I let a virtual game and the thoughts of others. Change me to the point I didnt even realize who or what I was anymore.
So gettting to know me all over and loving on me all over again is a beautiful thing.
Ur struggles make u stronger.
Ur lost makes u realize whats suppose to be there and whats not.
Ur tears become tears of victory
Ur Haters became ur stairway to every dream.
And I laugh at the fact that alot of ppl thought I was going to fail and go home . But I got news for u ppl . Ummmmm nope dont think so . I am going to ride this out until God make other plans. I didnt come this far for failure. Disappointment. or lack of .. etc.. Soooooo
Someone asked me about my love life. and I know who it is they just really wanna be nosey. and report and tell who ever willing to listen ... But here is my answer. I am doing me and doing a good job at it. And I am happy being single and more at rest .... Kisses
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IFQA78XTKj8
Even when u feel like u got the whole world against u and no one is on ur side But self.
This pass week has been the test for me. God is truly working on me and the devil is hitting the last nerve in my body cell. And thats no lie.
But I aint got NO WORRIES. at all cause things happen for a reason. Ppl are taken out ur life for a bigger plan .
My bestie told me I was ful of joy ... and up to the moment she said it I didnt even realize it. How much life i had in me. Because I let a virtual game and the thoughts of others. Change me to the point I didnt even realize who or what I was anymore.
So gettting to know me all over and loving on me all over again is a beautiful thing.
Ur struggles make u stronger.
Ur lost makes u realize whats suppose to be there and whats not.
Ur tears become tears of victory
Ur Haters became ur stairway to every dream.
And I laugh at the fact that alot of ppl thought I was going to fail and go home . But I got news for u ppl . Ummmmm nope dont think so . I am going to ride this out until God make other plans. I didnt come this far for failure. Disappointment. or lack of .. etc.. Soooooo
Someone asked me about my love life. and I know who it is they just really wanna be nosey. and report and tell who ever willing to listen ... But here is my answer. I am doing me and doing a good job at it. And I am happy being single and more at rest .... Kisses
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IFQA78XTKj8
Friday, June 14, 2013
Out of No WHERE!!!!
So today i was on my way to find Bk. This dude got on the train and set right in front of me . So i had no choice but to look at him . The dude looked right though me . like i felt as if he was looking for something. But it was something about his eyes that made me not make my normal face when men look at me. lol All he said was " Your going to be okay . and Ur time is coming just wait. Its coming " and smiled and got off at the next stop. all i could do was smile and cry cause i knew who is was and why he was there. My thoughts about me were starting to be more then my soul could deal with . And that is so not me.
As the days go by it gets better. When i think about what life has brought me . The lessons I have learned. The friends at has came and gone. The people who thought i couldnt do it. And the ones who has stood right beside me though it each day . I am blessed and my happiness is coming. I know it and when it do its going to be Sings Golden in my Jill Scott voice. Lol
Everything happens for a reason . Things fall apart so great things can come together. I get it now No lie i got ALOT of work to do on self. I am not going to lie I am not perfect . Honesty i am full of flaws and some other things that has no words. My faith in myself was broken , i question my self because of others thoughts of me . Which is really not the way to be But it is what it is. But the lack of self love is the worst. And i am really working on it.
My friend made me get on cam just to talk to her because of the things or so more the words of others that get under my skin. Which is more then cool cause its like ass holes everyone has one. So i should have let the shit go but i allowed it to hurt me. Hurt is like sex. Its one person to allow the other person to touch them..So u can only get hurt by the ones u allow to hurt u.
The people who have stood right here with me though this . I thank u alot even if u don't think i do . Thanks alot cause with out alot of ya ll i wouldn't have made it this far .
To the people who thought i glistened do it . and feed me the negative about my want and needs for this. Thank u too. cause u don't know what u have done for me. all smiles promise. Cause i am really blessed .
I am going to go though alot of changes. and the ones i am going though now just being me. I hit my low point all ready there is nothing someone can say to break me down .cause i already been there.
#MOVINGFORWARD
lOVE ASHLEY
Learn to love self . cause no one is going to love u like self and god. Nothing should break u only make u a better person . More beautiful then ever.
Thursday, June 13, 2013
Today is the day i choose to tell the world and share my Story. If
Ur going to judge i advice u not to comment . Please and thank .
My Struggle with NYC and self . Is like a emotionally roller coaster that i wanna jump off in mid air. As the days go by it becomes more real to me with each moment. Almost to the point its to much to handle. I expected this and I wanted that but things just go as they seem . But at the end of my day its my bed i made it . And Now i have to rest in it , The moment i got off that bus i was over the word excited. Cause at that point i knew i was only living for me and my daughter. No more questions to self" Who am I living For".As if I am Rhianna and wale on repeat. But then its the other side of me saying. Its Surreal . I cant cope. I cant think. this ain't me. Maybe it was to much from the start. But I was always that kid that wanted more of the world and what it had to offer. Other then the south and what it lacked in offering. Thinking this might really be to much. But I had my reasons My dreams My faith and something else.
You didn't see my dream when i was dreaming. So who are u to say its impossible?
Things have changed to a point I am like is it for my own good?
Or the betterment of me as a woman? Or even a lesson that i needed to learn. That u cant love someone more then u love Ur self.
Its Crazy .
My Struggle with NYC and self . Is like a emotionally roller coaster that i wanna jump off in mid air. As the days go by it becomes more real to me with each moment. Almost to the point its to much to handle. I expected this and I wanted that but things just go as they seem . But at the end of my day its my bed i made it . And Now i have to rest in it , The moment i got off that bus i was over the word excited. Cause at that point i knew i was only living for me and my daughter. No more questions to self" Who am I living For".As if I am Rhianna and wale on repeat. But then its the other side of me saying. Its Surreal . I cant cope. I cant think. this ain't me. Maybe it was to much from the start. But I was always that kid that wanted more of the world and what it had to offer. Other then the south and what it lacked in offering. Thinking this might really be to much. But I had my reasons My dreams My faith and something else.
You didn't see my dream when i was dreaming. So who are u to say its impossible?
Things have changed to a point I am like is it for my own good?
Or the betterment of me as a woman? Or even a lesson that i needed to learn. That u cant love someone more then u love Ur self.
Its Crazy .
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