Ur going to judge i advice u not to comment . Please and thank .
My Struggle with NYC and self . Is like a emotionally roller coaster that i wanna jump off in mid air. As the days go by it becomes more real to me with each moment. Almost to the point its to much to handle. I expected this and I wanted that but things just go as they seem . But at the end of my day its my bed i made it . And Now i have to rest in it , The moment i got off that bus i was over the word excited. Cause at that point i knew i was only living for me and my daughter. No more questions to self" Who am I living For".As if I am Rhianna and wale on repeat. But then its the other side of me saying. Its Surreal . I cant cope. I cant think. this ain't me. Maybe it was to much from the start. But I was always that kid that wanted more of the world and what it had to offer. Other then the south and what it lacked in offering. Thinking this might really be to much. But I had my reasons My dreams My faith and something else.
You didn't see my dream when i was dreaming. So who are u to say its impossible?
Things have changed to a point I am like is it for my own good?
Or the betterment of me as a woman? Or even a lesson that i needed to learn. That u cant love someone more then u love Ur self.
Its Crazy .
My Struggle with NYC and self . Is like a emotionally roller coaster that i wanna jump off in mid air. As the days go by it becomes more real to me with each moment. Almost to the point its to much to handle. I expected this and I wanted that but things just go as they seem . But at the end of my day its my bed i made it . And Now i have to rest in it , The moment i got off that bus i was over the word excited. Cause at that point i knew i was only living for me and my daughter. No more questions to self" Who am I living For".As if I am Rhianna and wale on repeat. But then its the other side of me saying. Its Surreal . I cant cope. I cant think. this ain't me. Maybe it was to much from the start. But I was always that kid that wanted more of the world and what it had to offer. Other then the south and what it lacked in offering. Thinking this might really be to much. But I had my reasons My dreams My faith and something else.
You didn't see my dream when i was dreaming. So who are u to say its impossible?
Things have changed to a point I am like is it for my own good?
Or the betterment of me as a woman? Or even a lesson that i needed to learn. That u cant love someone more then u love Ur self.
Its Crazy .
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